Dark days

I try to keep my blogs as positive and inspiring as possible but when life’s waves drown me, I can no longer find the motivation nor energy to garnish my writing with intricate detail and fictitious hope. And that’s when I get stuck in the cycle of not writing for five months straight. So today I’m…

Body acceptance in anorexia nervosa

There is a common misconception with regards to eating disorders that in anorexia nervosa, a healthy body means a healthy mind. Even among professionals whilst an inpatient I was met with ignorant comments along the lines of, “once you are no longer malnourished, your negative thoughts will automatically transfer into positive ones”, blaming my depression and…

Prison sentences and psychiatric illnesses

When reading a crime novel by Stuart Neville the other day, I came across a particular excerpt that encouraged me to put a belated pen to paper. The piece was this: Cunningham remembered taking a lifer called Brian to a newsagent’s. He had mumbled, “Polo mints, please.” The shopkeeper had set the sweets on the…

Let’s talk self harm and tattoos

Self harm as a topic is mostly unspoken of. And it’s when we do not talk about things that stigma arises, which then brings us into an inevitable, sticky cycle of continuing not to talk about them further because of the unspeakable shame that the stigma brings with it. But that’s what makes it so…

The problem with high functioning mental illness

The problem with high functioning mental illnesses is that they make an invisible illness a hundred times more invisible; and the problem with invisibility is that people are far less likely to take seriously that of which they cannot see. For the most part of the duration of my mental illnesses, I myself have been considered…

A flaw in chemistry, not character

Whilst I don’t believe that Facebook or social media in general are appropriate places to post regarding personal issues, I feel that there are certain situations where not only is it appropriate, but necessary. This week has been incredibly tough for me for one very simple reason: the pharmacy’s inability to supply me with my…

Finding good in every day

An important thing when it comes to mental health is how we define our “good days”. For those who do not suffer with mental illness, it is easy to assume that a “good mental health day” must be one without intrusive thoughts, destructive behaviours or solely any signs that the mental illness even exist. But…

Beyond my mental illness

My first week working at an adult psychiatric unit has come to an end. After five intensive days including training surrounding accessing medical records, performing CPR, carrying out observations and so forth, the most important lesson I have learned this week is this: My life is much less centred around my mental illness than I…

My only New Years Resolution for 2017

The problem with New Years resolutions are that they are completely contradictory. I’m pretty sure that the aim of a resolution is to improve and better yourself; yet at the same time in attempting to increase positivity, health and well being, you are simultaneously setting yourself up for failure as you tear yourself down, picking…

Recovery as reinvention

Over the previous couple of months, I have come to learn a massive aspect of what recovery from mental illness really means; a realisation of which in itself has begun a whole new process of healing. For far too long, I have referred to recovery in my own mind as recovering what I lost to…

Another kind of drug

In my teens, I found myself fascinated by a particular television series for a brief period. Throughout the series, the audience was introduced to numerous people all with the most bizarre obsessions with performing activities ranging from eating glass light bulbs to drinking paint and at it’s most extreme, having an intimate, sexual relationship with…

The competitive culture of mental illness

With statistics suggesting that 1 in 4 of the general population will suffer from a mental health problem at any point in their lives, it goes without saying that we all know somebody with a mental illness. But as an individual who has spent prolonged periods of the past 8 years in and out of the…